Memory #2

you winked at me.

in a crowded room.

that's all.

Memory #1

I was in your room at the University of Utah. You had gone to class and the plan was for me to wait until you got back and then head back to Colorado....I don't know what possessed me but you had this notebook on your desk and I just
opened it
you intrigued me so much I just wanted to soak in every ounce of your being. intellect. flesh. eyes.
(i don't see your soul anymore----i can't see in your eyes anymore. ps. by the way).

opened.

There was an entry talking about some girl you were kissing or seeing or dating or fucking. She said 'i'm just a rebound....you're still in love with her, aren't you?'

her...me.

you assured her that wasn't the case. or something. doesn't matter.

my heart was so crushed...i screamed. In your U of U dorm room. I screamed. I cried. I left.

Early.